Dear Friends

 Dear Friends,

To be frank, i am feeling blue tonight as i am missing my old friend. My pen pal. My first ever good friend whom i met online. I knew him from Bott**d App. He talked to me first then be a good and truthful friends ever since.

I have lost many good pen pals. But this reality beyond my expected. I like to miss him lately. I wanna talk to him so much. I am at my lowest. In previous year, in the middle year i decided to delete my own account from Bott**d for my own health social. I was so sick from everything online and in reality. Everything just hurts me at the same time. 2022 was my worst ever year happened in my life. My mom was so ill which frightened me off. I am just too emotional at things. Then i was ill, i was diagnosed with Gerd. Which all of that try to get me down. I been on my knees all the time.

Taylor tonight accompany me writing this letter. i can't thank to her enough for creating such masterpiece. I am drowning in the ocean of my mind. I am lost in the galaxies of darkened life. I am feeling so lonely. I don't know where to go. Where do broken heart go? All i can is crying in my rooms. SHiiitttt.. Am i just too weak? or too emotional or just being stupid? Sometimes i hate being myself for always condemn the life the way i want. 

"And when we're apart, and I'm missing you

I close my eyes and all I see is you" 

This song just broke my heart into pieces. Making me so in love even i am not in any Relationship lol. Please somebody help me to escape into reality. Take me to whatever people called Paradise is. Paradise is a place of contentment, a land of luxury and fulfillment containing ever-lasting bliss as Wiki said.

Do not trust Wiki too much friend as i remind.

Thank you for reading my long dairy. I wish you a good health, love of life and prosperity. Much love from me. Hoping i can greet you in some other time

GG, Greengirl.